cerebral wet spots & soulful convulsions

another year gained

2004-06-18T01:02:59Z

tomorrow is my birthday... and i fully embrace it...24 years old. alot has happened within the year. hell alot has happened within the last 3 weeks. what doesnt destroy you makes you stronger right? i would love to share my day with the man i love, but i have yet to meet him. im cool with it though. i have prospects, but as of right now they are all either bench warmers, reserves or on the injured list. im not down honestly. i will be doing it up come saturday night best believe it...

damn

2004-06-15T04:49:07Z

i just got in from Prince's concert...
that shit was moving
i'll be back to post more once i have rested my body

shespeaksit @ 2004-06-06T17:07:00

2004-06-06T22:09:22Z

"It curves to the right like i do."
gotta love Xhibit

shespeaksit @ 2004-06-02T21:20:00

2004-06-03T02:21:06Z

i love you

watchful

2004-05-09T17:13:00Z

gat damnit

2004-05-01T20:16:18Z

i passed all my classes..
fuckkkkk.. i coulda graduated today.....

but wait there's more

why in da fuck was my name listed in the gratuating bulletin...
now i dunno if i really graduated or if the bulletin was printed before i had ole girl change my date...

scared

2004-04-30T19:49:09Z

this guy who i aint talked to in a month....
just up and popped up at my job....
i am scared

who i aint seen face to face since high school (my jr year in high school)
he sent me a note on bp back in jan talking about he had a crush me one in school

something about him just irks me
he is crazy

i'm scared

cravings of the inner soul

2004-04-20T03:41:15Z

UPDATE happy birthday drosoulsophy END OF UPDATE

you ask me
to please explian me

you say that you dont understand
what part of me wants you as my man

i told you i am complexity
3 points to your pyramid

you ask me
who is thagirl
simply put my id
dominating and agressive

you ask me
who is her
my ego
all the desires of man
possessed within her bossom

you ask me
who is shespeaks
barely uttered my superego
wisdom insues her

3 points to your pryamid
the apex i place in your hand

come the fuck on

2004-04-10T23:36:06Z

so i decide to check out my stats.. you know.. see who been visiting my ish...you know.. referrers and stuff..then i see someone has gone through 18 pages... i dont even have that many links on my shit... this bitch done stole my entire layout.. i mean my entire... click here for her shit....then look at mine...
i'm soo pissed... i mean.. damn.. i dont know who this chick is...

in the wake

2004-04-10T05:31:29Z

i had a very emottional evening....he tore my heart out and threw it back at me.. thats how it felt...if anyone read my last entry..please forget.. it.. i was mad. and needed to vent...

was not amused

2004-03-25T05:07:55Z

maybe i'm the only person who was HIGHLY offended by the 2nd skit in dave's show tonight.... that was 100x worse than Janet's nipple being exposed. What upset me the most was the use of kids in the skit... The 1st curse word was aight..but by the 10th time he said 'fuck it' i was like WTF is this shit...phrases like "but you wont get pussy" and "i beat my cock like it owes me money" was just going too far... i was already like this better get better after the drug song.. but no... it became worse...what took the cake was showing the puppets penis urinating... i know i'm far from being a prude, but some things should be explained with some degree of maturity to children.. i found the skit tasteles.. im a huge chapelle fan...but that skit was a step in the wrong direction... it could have been better...it would have been better if maybe he should of had puppet kids in it or adults protraying kids...

i was the LEAST bit amused by it...

a letter

2004-03-19T08:32:26Z

Dear Captain Save A Hoe,
Please stop...
your mission is futile
and the hoes think they are gonna come out on top
see a real woman knows that she has to be strong
them girls that you keep playing with...
lieing to em...faking it...that shit is just wrong..
you're wasting my time
spit fire is what im going to do
i got something better in mind

all these chicks want to do
is rock your chain
lick on ur medallion
they hoes Mr. Captain
they ride jocks like they stallions...
you making shit hard for the ladies
with the whack ass rip offs u keep wifeing

so please do us favor
let the bitch fall
next time you want to save her...

,yours honestly
alady

overwhelmed

2004-03-16T20:31:54Z

my car is dying.. its stressing me out.. i dont need this right now...

pimp shit

2004-03-06T02:07:32Z

edit please click this shit... saw that on a forum i post too.....end of edit
man i have no clue what the hell that title has to due with this entry but whateva...

decided to liven up that dark ass design i had going on ova here...its bright as FUCK...and thats how i like it...
i really wanna send some ♥ to everyone who gave me wonderful comments on my last entry... thanks for real...this entry is sweet and short...

me in a nutshell

2004-02-25T01:48:03Z

i was going to continue my post about my weekend..but decided to do this instead...so yeah this post is public... got it form docno
RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you
3. Bold the four that best apply to you.
4. Put all twelve months under a livejournal cut

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. ~~Easily influenced by kindness.~~ ~~Polite and soft-spoken.~~ Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. ~~Hesitating~~, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. ~~Friendly.~~ Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. ~~Prone to getting colds.~~ Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. ~~Stubborn.~~
del

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

music i ♥

2004-02-18T05:49:09Z

seen this all over...got it from drosoulsophy

Step 1: Open your itunes/musicmatch/whatever you use to play MP3s
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first fifteen songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.

1)ms stress-floetry
2)oprea-floetry
3)thorn-eight ball
4)fun-floetry
5)like dat-eigtball
6)prototype-andre 3000
7)the one-india.arie
8)spread- andre 30000
9)spit-eightball
10)She Lives in My Lab-Andre 3000
11)Live This- Eightball
12)healing-India.Arie
13)Pink and Blue-Andree 3000
14)can i walk with you-India.Arie
15)butterflied-Floetry

nothing embarrasing about this...just shows my favorite albulms at the time...i havent uploaded or downloaded any music in months...*note to self* get off ur ass and get some new music...ASAP

aint that a bitch

2004-02-14T16:02:39Z

Shit like this just dont make any sense....leave it to people to make even a day of love into a mockery....

edit and please tell me that this* is a practical joke...an early April fools... how in the fuck is someone gonna be nominated for a NObel Peace Prize for starting a war....Hello..did they miss the PEACE part in that.... dude has never...and I mean NEVER... been an advocate for nonviolence... when he was governor his state had the highest death penalty rate in the nation....

* ty on_phiya for that link

nooooooooooooooooo

2004-02-11T18:16:50Z

its offical....that bootified message has appeared... *sniffle*....

editokay...for those who dont know what i'm talking about... my site has been suspended and if you have been keeping up with my posts then you would know why...

i have soo much going on in my head that i really dont know where to start so i think im just going to make some randomn statements..

...why is the government trying to sue Janet Jackson
...what was up with 50 cent when he walked out on stage during the artist of the year award
...and why in the FUCK is the dude beside me breath stank so damn bad....and he keeps on yawning and shit with his mouth wide open.. ughhh (i really dislike the comp lab at times)
...why do my books cost 375 dollars
...why does it seem like every damn thing wants to F up during my last semester in undergrad
...why is my co-worker drop dead gorgeous
...and why do i find him flirting with me..but i just blow it off
...is beyonce's music really what i want to have as a measure of grammy award quality
...does anyone else find Funsworth Bentley hella annoying
...and who pray tell is styling Christina end of edit

a quickie

2004-02-11T05:39:52Z

I just realised that all of my private entires have had a sexual nature...

interesting.....

glad i still got you...

2004-02-07T00:25:11Z

since this has already become my personal journal.. i decided to let non live journal users post on here... sorry to those that have been fussing at me because they couldnt post replies.... but ya'll need to join... i have alot of juicy personal stuff that is either friends only or inner circle... and no matter if i enable anonymous (sp) posting or not... you wont have access...

i'm just counting the days till imma go ova to my site and see some bootified message letting the world know the the "HNIC" is a broke one... oh well... i aint too tore up about it... i can always cancel hosting and just be hosted again... NOT... i love haing my own shit... and u go d1rty... im digging that new icon u got son...

pour a lil out for me please

2004-02-05T20:11:52Z

my site is about to be cut of due to me suffering from poorcollegestudentidis.... *sigh*.... i had cheese... more than enough...but then my car decided to get sick...so i had to weigh my options... i feel like posting a donate button to my paypal account... but eh...i want to use that as a last extreme measure....

sad times....sad times indeed.....

come on please

2004-02-03T01:42:29Z

I dont get the big whoopty-t-doo ova janets tit...i guess i would feel differently if the shit was on purpose...but come on...PLEASE..accidents happen...the lady is already embarassed as it is...ppl are so caught up in the ~~indecency~~ of the act...and what about the children...what the fuck about em? they have moms...they were breast feed...they seen a damn boob before...its not that big of a deal...there are far worse things on tv and off that need to be addressed that the mishap of janets nipple... *rolls eyes*...if i wasnt on break during class i would continue my rant...

until later

///987-986

ohhh looky

2004-01-21T02:46:54Z

man im soo in love with my new purse...

now imma going to have to buy these in fushia

new beginnings...

2004-01-03T01:55:19Z

i finally got an LJ.. well honestly my private blogger is at xanga...but i might move it over here who knows... for right now...this page is mainly for the sole purpose to allow me post to my friends' ljs....